HOLIDAY$$$
i should so be studying right now…but for some reason i dont feel the pressure. ill feel it when i wake up and realize that i only have 2 hours to cram! aha, no but really, ill study…later.
this is my first year of working. it was the first year i actually supported myself through bills (not as crazy as my parents, but a good jump start). first time i spent my money on food instead of my weekly lunch money allowance that could hardly last me 2 days but i couldn’t ask til the next week -_- haha. first time i bought my own clothes instead of hustlin my mom and getting ready a little bit earlier just so i can watch her shop and try to hide a few things in the cart and get away with it. this year…was hard. when i was younger i used to be excited to get the mail and always look through the shit acting like something in the mail was for me. and when my parents told me that later on im gonna wish i never got mail all i could do was look at them all crazy thinkin that was the coolest shit ever. SILLY ME! kick myself in the ass for that shit cuz NOW i understand. like biggie says, MO’ MONEY MO’ PROBLEMS. sure enough…story of my life.
this year, im actually GIVING! feels great…but my bank account looks like shit. i was helping out a lady in my store the other day, actually like a whiiile ago…but anyways, she was all confused about buying some shoes. she musta just bought a pair of boots for like 130 and she fell in love with another pair for just about the same price…of course me, tryin to cop a sale was hella pushing her to just go with the boot…and if you know me, you know my impulse on shopping and my influence on opinions i woulda took out my card without asking twice. but she said her dad always told her ‘dont spend what you dont have’ and when she told that to me a whole new world came into perspective. cuz on the real…how many times did i spend knowing that i couldnt afford it. or how many times i charged it on credit so that my direct deposit will come in on time, or how many times i just didnt care that i overdrafted. FML ON THE REAL, cuz if i had that kind of mentality i wouldn’t be bitchin all the damn time. so here i am, struggling to buy gifts but wont give up cuz everyone im giving to, deserves it.
now im broke as hell…and the only thing i have to look forward to is watching “sex and the city” the movie, cuz i copped that shit for 5 bucks at ross. haha
ALMOST done with Christmas shopping. finally celebrating it back home in the bay! (: its gonna be a goooooood christmas bitches!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS<3
